According to the weather today, it is fall, and that makes me so extremely happy. This sort of weather brings back a lot of memories. It makes me think of high school football, softball tournaments, the weather when I would get off the bus for volleyball games, a lot of specific things like that. I hadn't really thought about these things too much, as I was trying to avoid it, until I went home for homecoming last Friday. Seeing all my friends from high school was so special. Even though there were a few who couldn't make it, it felt so good to have most of the gang back together again. Saturday afternoon I stopped by the volleyball tournament though, and that's when it hit me. Seeing my team playing without me really struck my emotions, hard. I couldn't stay, which was probably good, because I went home for the first time realizing that I will never get those Saturday tournaments back. I will never get back those practices that I despised so much, I will never again experience that feeling that I used to get every time we would get off the softball or volleyball bus at another school. That uneasy feeling of excitement, but still somewhere deep inside, nervousness. All that is left of that chapter of my life are memories, because I will never again be able to relive those moments. Sure, I knew this already, I realized I would not be going back to that place, but in that moment when it registered with me, I truly felt the urge to be back at that school, back in those shoes.
On that note, I will move forward to a more positive subject. That subject is that I may be changing my major... Again, already. Within the last week or so I have been continuing to think about how I want to spend the rest of my life, in what career. I thought I had decided on Counseling Psychology a few weeks ago because of my interest in it, and my passion for helping people. I've always been interested in psychology. I think I could use that toward making people's lives better. Not to say that I am some kind of miracle worker, because I am not. But if something I did or said could influence someone in a positive way, if I could use my knowledge and personal experiences to relate to someone and help them out, I would want to do that. That is the bottom line. I feel like I am being called to do something which I am passionate about, and something I think I could be good at. So, psychology seems like a good fit, right? Yes, but... Within the last week, something else has jumped out and grabbed my attention. This is something that I could use this same passion toward. I feel however, like it may be more fitting. And this career path is... Social Work. I haven't officially changed over yet, in fact, according to the University of Missouri, I'm technically still Pre-Comm. I want to make sure that I am positive in my decision before I switch (hopefully permanently). I am going to continue thinking on this subject, and praying about it. God will let me know what I need to do.
That's about it for my thoughts at the moment. I might edit this later if I think of something else. Don't forget to smile today :). The End.
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| In honor of the first "fall" day, according to me at least, I am sporting my dad's flannel. :) |
