I can't even tell you how much I have wanted to blog about my life these last few weeks. How much I have wanted to blog about my trip to Pittsburgh. No. That's a lie. I have been wanting to want to blog about Pitt. But that's just it, I didn't really want to.
The last couple of weeks I have just felt so restless. I've felt frustrated with the monotony of life. I've felt worn out. That has made me irritable, not super friendly, and really moody. I've received advice to journal, to get into the word and read scripture, to be in prayer about it. To be honest though, I haven't wanted to do any of those things except maybe be in prayer about it. But I felt like even that wasn't getting me very far.
Yesterday I was reminded by a really good friend of mine about the message that one of our pastors, Garrett brought to us on Sunday. And that, in summary, was this:
God cares about the small stuff. He is interested and involved in every detail of our life. I think I actually did take that message away from the sermon, but what I decided not to listen to was exactly what I needed to hear, the other part. That message was about how much the Lord delights in the time we spend with Him. And (THIS WAS THE BIG TAKEAWAY), that time with Him does not always have to mean spending an endless amount of time reading or studying scripture. While that is really super important and vital in a relationship with the Lord, sometimes that having good time with Him means turning off the radio to talk to Him. Sometimes it means just playing. Playing? What does that mean? The Lord delights in our playfulness. Sometimes he wants us to just go have fun. Having fun can be an act of worship, just as most things can be, and sometimes that can be just exactly what we need. This is what I needed to hear most.
It's easy to feel shameful when I haven't been reading scripture a lot. It's easy to feel that way when I haven't been journaling, or doing other things I normally do to spend time with Jesus. But this week, I think my heart just needs some fun, quiet time with the Lord.
My challenge to you all this weekend is just to take some time from your busy schedule and play outside. Go to a park, go on a walk, go find a swing set somewhere and just swing. Do something that is restful for you, something that you find joy in doing. And maybe do it alone, I think you'll find it quite rewarding. I sure do.
Happy Friday guys. Thanks for being great friends and sticking with me through the mountains and the valleys.
Anna
